My Why

After years of being on various medications for ADHD and depression, after years of therapy, I was still drowning in self-doubt, self-judgement, self-loathing, imposter syndrome, fear of failure, fear of success, fear of my own power, fear of life. I had few healthy coping skills. I couldn’t finish anything without a seriously unhealthy amount of stress. I didn’t think I was worthy of love on any level, I thought I was the worst parent, the worst wife, the worst friend, sister, daughter, human. I was ready to fall asleep and never wake up.

Then I met Kelly. A guide in this lineage. I thought this woman was completely crazy AND all I wanted was to be around her. She had this light about her. She still lights up every room she enters. I would joke that I wanted to lick her so I could catch whatever she had. She would just say, “eww!” in that adorable way she does.

One day I finally agreed to the Life Activation and then to Empower Thyself a few months later, quite reluctantly.

I really thought the whole thing was insane, but I wanted what she had and this was how she said she got it, so I took a chance. I showed up arms crossed, side-eyed, but I showed up.

It’s been 5 years since my Life Activation and Initiation. I have been off all medications for almost 3 years. and I AM THRIVING.

I truly love myself and my life. I know myself more deeply than ever. I’ve unpacked, healed, and released so much of my trauma and baggage. My lows are now higher than my highs ever were. Meaning, even when I’m going through it, I’m still in joy. My happiest days before this whole Modern Mystery School journey were still lower than my current lows. That’s huge in itself.

I’m still working through my financial independence blocks and my worthiness issues around my physical body still needs some work, AND I’m making huge strides.
I see all “mistakes” as learning opportunities and I don’t fear making mistakes much at all anymore. Failure is but a learning opportunity no matter how drastic the consequences are. The road to success is paved with learning opportunities. It’s how we succeed.

There will always be layers of stuff to work on, that’s life, but now I have the power, tools and knowledge to face it all with compassion, love, and even joy.

AND, now I have the power, tools, and knowledge to help YOU get there too and that is my WHY -

Service. Take what I’ve learned to help others reach their true potential. Help others find their joy.
Help others remember their divinity.